This will most likely NOT be the most unorthodox post I ever publish, so if this seems like it might be out your lane then I probably won’t be one of the sites you bookmark on your device of preference– and quite honestly, I’m okay with that. I think in a lot of ways we conform ourselves to the point of creative frustration. I certainly know I’ve been guilty of that.. I’ve tried to fit into a certain paradigm of thought that I’ve killed the characteristics that made me, me. I promise this relates to what I’ve actually come here to say, just work with me here..
Conformity is not necessarily a terrible thing. I’m starting to realize that nothing we do is really terrible –its really all about perspective and what ends you’re setting out to meet. For me, continued conformity is the birthplace for continued comfort; comfort leads to complacency; complacency is the resting place for growth. If I were to be honest with myself, any time I’ve grown has been from a place of painful discomfort. I’m hardheaded and as my dad would say I “don’t think fat meat is greasy,” so typically I have to learn from falling straight on my face. But all those experiences have enabled me to learn so much about myself.
I’m a resilient, ferociously zealous woman. I’m tough, principled, skeptical and once I trust enough to let you in past those walls of weariness, I’m soft, sensitive and loyal to a fault. I have a huge heart and I love hard. I’m very much business minded and very much black and white in regards to most situations. I said all of that to say, we must STOP apologizing for living who we are. Everybody has their testimony story they’re living out.. We have to trust God as we live out our own.
I’m sure many people will read this and interpret everything but exactly what I’ve said but honestly, that’s not my fault nor is it really my concern. I just wanted to encourage at least one person to understand it’s okay be who you are in this moment. We’re never really through growing. Unless God has revealed to you otherwise, it’s not your responsibility to be liked or even appreciated by all you encounter. Your goal in life should never be to shrink yourself so that everyone else can shine. It shouldn’t be your position to encourage others to diminish their insecurities at your expense.
And occassionally that may mean some people WILL NOT see it for you. WHO CARES? WHO GONE POP YOU? Nobody. And if they try… well, that’s another post for another day. Nonetheless, be yourself — eff the rest, baby.. And above all stay trill.